some lyrics I'm enjoying at this moment
I was born with the wrong sign
In the wrong house
With the wrong ascendancy
I took the wrong road
That led to the wrong tendencies
I was in the wrong place at the wrong time
For the wrong reason and the wrong rhyme
On the wrong day of the wrong week
I used the wrong method with the wrong technique
There's something wrong with me chemically
Something wrong with me inherently
The wrong mix in the wrong genes
I reached the wrong ends by the wrong means
It was the wrong plan
In the wrong hands
The wrong theory for the wrong man
The wrong eyes on the wrong prize
The wrong questions with the wrong replies
or what about this one:
I love you and 'cause I do
My sky has changed
From grey to blue
But blue's not just
A color of the rainbow
It's shade is not a hazy hue
But pure and hard
My blue sky blue
It's like a Roman candle
Coming rosebuds
Your words are empty hollow bleatings
Of a mental crutch
They're open-festered indigestion
With a velvet touch
An ether-eating Eskimo
Would gag upon your sight
Convulsed into oblivion
From laughter or from fright
A coma with a sweet aroma
Is your only dream
Malignant with the misconception
That a grunt can gleam
Your lichen-covered corpuscles
Are filthy to my fist
Infection is your finest flower
Mildewed in the mist.
Listen for yourself: Bach is Dead.
In the wrong house
With the wrong ascendancy
I took the wrong road
That led to the wrong tendencies
I was in the wrong place at the wrong time
For the wrong reason and the wrong rhyme
On the wrong day of the wrong week
I used the wrong method with the wrong technique
There's something wrong with me chemically
Something wrong with me inherently
The wrong mix in the wrong genes
I reached the wrong ends by the wrong means
It was the wrong plan
In the wrong hands
The wrong theory for the wrong man
The wrong eyes on the wrong prize
The wrong questions with the wrong replies
or what about this one:
I love you and 'cause I do
My sky has changed
From grey to blue
But blue's not just
A color of the rainbow
It's shade is not a hazy hue
But pure and hard
My blue sky blue
It's like a Roman candle
Coming rosebuds
Your words are empty hollow bleatings
Of a mental crutch
They're open-festered indigestion
With a velvet touch
An ether-eating Eskimo
Would gag upon your sight
Convulsed into oblivion
From laughter or from fright
A coma with a sweet aroma
Is your only dream
Malignant with the misconception
That a grunt can gleam
Your lichen-covered corpuscles
Are filthy to my fist
Infection is your finest flower
Mildewed in the mist.
Listen for yourself: Bach is Dead.
a democracy
"A democracy is a system in which you are free to do whatever you like as long as you do what you are told to do". Noam Chomsky
facebookism
Great article rising several interesting thoughts. I liked it so much that I even deleted my facebook account. Why not. I have not been using it anyway. But then I'm Human 1.0 so none of this is surprising.
taste this
Being parent, similarly to being married gives you opportunity to try something what you would not be able to experience otherwise. It will cost you something as each experience does and leaves scars on your body but it is also a good way to kill the time before you die. So what experience I have in my mind when writing this? Wallpapering kids bedroom! I really love this RGB exhibitions and it is first time when I feel really keen on wallpapering. Or perhaps just projecting.
Ultimately it's not a question of taste; it's the other way around: Each thing in the world asks us: "what makes you think I'm not something you like"? (John Cage)
It is possible previous two paragraphs are not related, but then what is.
Ultimately it's not a question of taste; it's the other way around: Each thing in the world asks us: "what makes you think I'm not something you like"? (John Cage)
It is possible previous two paragraphs are not related, but then what is.
Responsible Gardening
It is late Spring and our vege garden looks very healthy. I'm frequently observing plants I've put into the ground and watching their progress. It is very unlikely they will get into mature age considering all the factors against them - drought if I do not water them, kids running and jumping around, birds galore which sometimes look hungry and sometimes just wrestle with plants for pure fun out of ripping them apart, and have I mentioned ducks and worms? Despite all that most of the plants survive and bloom and produce something. Which you could consider a success but is there any difference from their point of view? Eaten by Human or by Bird? Is frying pan death any different from birds beak? Or being eaten alive in a fresh summer salad? Is some dressing nicer to die in than other?
While you wondering about these questions and watering your garden here is something to listen to. It was released pretty much when I was born so depending on your birth year you may or may not like it.
Theory of Obscurity I find very appealing. It states that "an artist can only produce pure art when the expectations and influences of the outside world are not taken into consideration."
While you wondering about these questions and watering your garden here is something to listen to. It was released pretty much when I was born so depending on your birth year you may or may not like it.
Theory of Obscurity I find very appealing. It states that "an artist can only produce pure art when the expectations and influences of the outside world are not taken into consideration."
some random notes from 17.11.2010
* design something on your computer and let ponoko manufacture it for you
* if you still can read give this a shot
*
* and something else which I forgot
* listening to Shackleton
* if you still can read give this a shot
*
Devotion . Courage . Sacrifice these are the words from Thai energy drink bottle I'm holding. I like them. That's definitely my thirties. My twenties were Faith . Hope . Love. * and something else which I forgot
* listening to Shackleton
so do you have to deserve wedding or not?
Now when I proposed to mother of my children and I've become semi-officially fiancé she keeps asking what I meant when I wrote that marriage must be deserved.
There are at least three answers to that question:
1. Nothing matters.
I truly believe that marriage is devalued and should be deserved to gain certain respect. But even if it is a strong believe it does not matter. Nothing matters. Nor marriage. Marriage here, marriage there, marriage everywhere. It is a thought but that's it. Nothing more then a thought. And wedding party.
2. Being rational is irrational (or boring)
I truly believe that marriage is devalued and should be deserved to gain certain respect. And you would expect that I will follow that believe and stick with it till the end of my life or till I withdraw it or update it or something. Well I could and that's what I've been doing whole my life. But it is actually more interesting to break your believes system and not follow it. It gives you sensation of freedom, you can learn that your original believe was or was not correct, you can learn that it does not matter if it was or was not correct; etc. in any case life goes on regardless what you do.
3. Make people happy
I truly believe that marriage is devalued and should be deserved to gain certain respect. But if it makes somebody happy - your partner, parents, neighbours, your dog, etc. - then why not to do it? When you make somebody happy you will get it back in some way.
4. Open your opportunities
I truly believe that marriage is devalued and should be deserved to gain certain respect. But being married or engaged means you can get divorced or disengaged and you would never be able to experience these things if you did not get married first. You would not want to be dying with regret that you never got divorced in whole your life.
5. I think I could go on....
There are at least three answers to that question:
1. Nothing matters.
I truly believe that marriage is devalued and should be deserved to gain certain respect. But even if it is a strong believe it does not matter. Nothing matters. Nor marriage. Marriage here, marriage there, marriage everywhere. It is a thought but that's it. Nothing more then a thought. And wedding party.
2. Being rational is irrational (or boring)
I truly believe that marriage is devalued and should be deserved to gain certain respect. And you would expect that I will follow that believe and stick with it till the end of my life or till I withdraw it or update it or something. Well I could and that's what I've been doing whole my life. But it is actually more interesting to break your believes system and not follow it. It gives you sensation of freedom, you can learn that your original believe was or was not correct, you can learn that it does not matter if it was or was not correct; etc. in any case life goes on regardless what you do.
3. Make people happy
I truly believe that marriage is devalued and should be deserved to gain certain respect. But if it makes somebody happy - your partner, parents, neighbours, your dog, etc. - then why not to do it? When you make somebody happy you will get it back in some way.
4. Open your opportunities
I truly believe that marriage is devalued and should be deserved to gain certain respect. But being married or engaged means you can get divorced or disengaged and you would never be able to experience these things if you did not get married first. You would not want to be dying with regret that you never got divorced in whole your life.
5. I think I could go on....
Software methodologies are quackery! I knew it!
I always believed that software methodologies are overrated. They contain (sometime) some good ideas but following them rigidly is pointless. In the end it is about people. And software methodologies will not make people better or help them make better software.
So I enjoyed reading Medieval medicine and computers which besides other says:
"I think the modern analogue to quackery are software methodology in all shapes in sizes. Like quack medicines, some of these may be effective, but in the absence of scientific explanations we can only watch the show, buy in, and see if it works. And we can’t hope for any better until our underlying theories are better developed."
Yeah, right.
So I enjoyed reading Medieval medicine and computers which besides other says:
"I think the modern analogue to quackery are software methodology in all shapes in sizes. Like quack medicines, some of these may be effective, but in the absence of scientific explanations we can only watch the show, buy in, and see if it works. And we can’t hope for any better until our underlying theories are better developed."
Yeah, right.
Ten Things Milton Have Learned
Good read:
Ten Things I Have Learned
I find it interesting how getting older, more experienced, tired, and I do not know what changes perspective, perception and understanding. I knew when I was 16 that I will get older and look at things differently but at that time I insisted on doing them my way regardless of consequences, regardless how stupid the path I chose was. And I'm happy I did. Actually I could not choose anyway. The path was given to me by my age. And now with distance (age distance) I can see how my current world is different from when I was 16. And how many things are understandable on intellectual level at any age but how different the understanding is when it is experiential. I truly agree on some of the things Milton says but I wonder how I will look at that article in 20 years when I'm 56. Give me some time and I will answer that question.
Ten Things I Have Learned
I find it interesting how getting older, more experienced, tired, and I do not know what changes perspective, perception and understanding. I knew when I was 16 that I will get older and look at things differently but at that time I insisted on doing them my way regardless of consequences, regardless how stupid the path I chose was. And I'm happy I did. Actually I could not choose anyway. The path was given to me by my age. And now with distance (age distance) I can see how my current world is different from when I was 16. And how many things are understandable on intellectual level at any age but how different the understanding is when it is experiential. I truly agree on some of the things Milton says but I wonder how I will look at that article in 20 years when I'm 56. Give me some time and I will answer that question.
Alien parasite technical guy and Fight Zero-Sum Bias
Two interesting articles:
"If you expose someone, even using subliminal messages, to pictures, words, etc., closely-connected to some goals and not to others, people will work harder towards those goals without being aware of it."
Alien parasite technical guy
"A situation involving a collection of entities is zero-sum if one entity's gain is another's loss, whereas a situation is positive-sum if the entities involved can each achieve the best possible outcome by cooperating with one another. Zero-sum bias is the tendency to systematically assume that positive-sum situations are zero-sum situations."
Fight Zero-Sum Bias
"If you expose someone, even using subliminal messages, to pictures, words, etc., closely-connected to some goals and not to others, people will work harder towards those goals without being aware of it."
Alien parasite technical guy
"A situation involving a collection of entities is zero-sum if one entity's gain is another's loss, whereas a situation is positive-sum if the entities involved can each achieve the best possible outcome by cooperating with one another. Zero-sum bias is the tendency to systematically assume that positive-sum situations are zero-sum situations."
Fight Zero-Sum Bias
throwing away little bit of the past
These are the words of repetitive voice opera which I composed and sang and performed to welcome people to our Performing Arts party a while ago:
Listen to my voice
I'm delighted to see you all around
It's my pleasure
Do not afraid of anything
This going to be fun
It's just a play,
we all get up afterwards
Nobody's gonna judge you,
nobody
These are the words of my
psychologist
And she knows
what she talks about
She also says
"Nobody gives a shit"
You are free and young
And so I'm dancing here
like a crazy horse,
ignoring you
and welcoming you
Listen to my voice
I'm delighted to see you all around
It's my pleasure
Do not afraid of anything
This going to be fun
It's just a play,
we all get up afterwards
Nobody's gonna judge you,
nobody
These are the words of my
psychologist
And she knows
what she talks about
She also says
"Nobody gives a shit"
You are free and young
And so I'm dancing here
like a crazy horse,
ignoring you
and welcoming you
you must deserve the wedding (and wait for drugs)
I went to a wedding. It hardened my feelings that I'm not designed for weddings. Neither as visitor nor as main actor. All that declaration/declamation of love, happiness, goodwill till the end of the world feels like too much for me. I was asking myself why but I'm not sure about the answer yet.
On practical level wedding used to make sense in times when you could not touch opposite sex before marriage. I can imagine that getting married at these times would be certain culmination and beginning of something truly new and wedding would be a ritual introducing two people on completely different path. But today it is more or less a stamp on something what does not need a stamp. Perhaps I would take it more seriously and with respect if people could not get divorced and adultery would be a crime you would go to jail for. That would bear certain weight. But people get married, and divorced and married and divorced and each time they have 'the wedding'.
Keeping relationship in working order is difficult and for some reason underestimated or even overlooked task. In long run it is hard. You getting to know and influence each other on completely different level, you are changing as you are getting older and your partner after five ten twenty years might be somebody utterly different, you are going together through life peripeties, you rise children, etc. It is bloody hard. And wedding these days does not have much of an impact on relationship stability. At least not in Western culture which centers around your ego, personal space and freedom and everything else than something as basic as faith.
Yeah, whatever, I got too philosophical. Here is my point: if me and Pania stay together for 22 years then I will marry her! Wedding must be deserved! So if we work patiently, diligently and ardently for whole 22 year and keep loving each other then we should get the right to get married and celebrate our life, receive the gifts and appreciations and instead of talking about future we can talk about past and be "example" for your children and others. But not the other way. That's too easy and cost you nothing.
That reminds me another thought from this week: young people take drugs and are in search of their subconscious, meaning of life and whatever ... you name it. But it is totally wrong. Young people have everything: youth, energy, faith, hopes, dreams, sex, freedom, ... they are overloaded with adrenaline and their life is constantly pretty amazing and there are no problems they really need to solve or get answers to. It takes young people another ten to twenty years to get to the state when you know yourself a bit more, when you had time to live your own live, work on your carrier (in the widest sense of the word) and when you come to a point when you realize that things are not as good as you wanted them or planned and future does not look that clear and attractive. That is the time - I think - that people should start to experiment with their life and try to get deeper under the surface and get the answers to their questions. I'm not saying we should start taking drugs, but it would be more appropriate age to take some hallucinogen and hope to uncover your subconscious then when you were teen.
Everything needs its time. When I was young I was passionate about everything and wanted to change the world etc. etc. But I was also pretty immature, unexperienced, impatient, intolerant, naive, ignorant, self centered rebel. I could do a revolution, but I could not change the world to be a better place.
Quote of this week: Every man is a damn fool for at least five minutes every day; wisdom consists of not exceeding that limit - Elbert Hubbard
I like this:
and here is more.
On practical level wedding used to make sense in times when you could not touch opposite sex before marriage. I can imagine that getting married at these times would be certain culmination and beginning of something truly new and wedding would be a ritual introducing two people on completely different path. But today it is more or less a stamp on something what does not need a stamp. Perhaps I would take it more seriously and with respect if people could not get divorced and adultery would be a crime you would go to jail for. That would bear certain weight. But people get married, and divorced and married and divorced and each time they have 'the wedding'.
Keeping relationship in working order is difficult and for some reason underestimated or even overlooked task. In long run it is hard. You getting to know and influence each other on completely different level, you are changing as you are getting older and your partner after five ten twenty years might be somebody utterly different, you are going together through life peripeties, you rise children, etc. It is bloody hard. And wedding these days does not have much of an impact on relationship stability. At least not in Western culture which centers around your ego, personal space and freedom and everything else than something as basic as faith.
Yeah, whatever, I got too philosophical. Here is my point: if me and Pania stay together for 22 years then I will marry her! Wedding must be deserved! So if we work patiently, diligently and ardently for whole 22 year and keep loving each other then we should get the right to get married and celebrate our life, receive the gifts and appreciations and instead of talking about future we can talk about past and be "example" for your children and others. But not the other way. That's too easy and cost you nothing.
That reminds me another thought from this week: young people take drugs and are in search of their subconscious, meaning of life and whatever ... you name it. But it is totally wrong. Young people have everything: youth, energy, faith, hopes, dreams, sex, freedom, ... they are overloaded with adrenaline and their life is constantly pretty amazing and there are no problems they really need to solve or get answers to. It takes young people another ten to twenty years to get to the state when you know yourself a bit more, when you had time to live your own live, work on your carrier (in the widest sense of the word) and when you come to a point when you realize that things are not as good as you wanted them or planned and future does not look that clear and attractive. That is the time - I think - that people should start to experiment with their life and try to get deeper under the surface and get the answers to their questions. I'm not saying we should start taking drugs, but it would be more appropriate age to take some hallucinogen and hope to uncover your subconscious then when you were teen.
Everything needs its time. When I was young I was passionate about everything and wanted to change the world etc. etc. But I was also pretty immature, unexperienced, impatient, intolerant, naive, ignorant, self centered rebel. I could do a revolution, but I could not change the world to be a better place.
Quote of this week: Every man is a damn fool for at least five minutes every day; wisdom consists of not exceeding that limit - Elbert Hubbard
I like this:
and here is more.
anything memorable happened today?
Depends on perspective. My house asked me to buy it a wife. No, my wife asked me to buy us a house. We wrote five good and five bad reasons why to buy a house. I ended up only with five bad ones. My main objection is that in our price range we will get shit house, which will be just awful, cold in winter and just unattractive and so why to bother then?
I finished reading The Graveyard Book (Neil Gaiman) which I bought when I visited big town (Auckland) week or two ago on the way to Kaukapakapa to Vipassana meditation retreat. I like Gaiman fantasy and it was overly enjoyable. Real easy read.
The quote of the week comes from Laibach: "We are fascists as much as Hitler was a painter".
Btw. our house got fresh white pain, no I mean paint and just shines. The painter mentioned something along the line that our life will be much better here now, but I wonder why because inside it is still the same. Do I look like a cicada or what? They sit all the summer on the walls of our house and make their loud noises, so they may appreciate it but not me. Just outside pain, inside it is still the same.
Fair enough though, cicadas live most of their life deep under the ground so they have a reason to climb on the house and just keep looking around in disbelieve and shriek.
Btw. I started this blog mainly because it was so easy to start one and customize blog template, but then realized that I have no content. So here is an attempt to create some content.
I finished reading The Graveyard Book (Neil Gaiman) which I bought when I visited big town (Auckland) week or two ago on the way to Kaukapakapa to Vipassana meditation retreat. I like Gaiman fantasy and it was overly enjoyable. Real easy read.
The quote of the week comes from Laibach: "We are fascists as much as Hitler was a painter".
Btw. our house got fresh white pain, no I mean paint and just shines. The painter mentioned something along the line that our life will be much better here now, but I wonder why because inside it is still the same. Do I look like a cicada or what? They sit all the summer on the walls of our house and make their loud noises, so they may appreciate it but not me. Just outside pain, inside it is still the same.
Fair enough though, cicadas live most of their life deep under the ground so they have a reason to climb on the house and just keep looking around in disbelieve and shriek.
Btw. I started this blog mainly because it was so easy to start one and customize blog template, but then realized that I have no content. So here is an attempt to create some content.
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